Rereading what I wrote, I was pretty harsh. That’s even after I edited it twice to get some of the harshness out. But truth is harsh.
I understand a lot of people enjoyed the series. It was one of the more popular webcomics at the time, and although I couldn’t translate it to any kind of personal success, I respect that there are people with fond memories and stuff. But the post is not about those people — it’s all about myself, and how I could not make it work for me.
However, I invested a lot into it and I found it difficult to leave it and go on to do something else. This was very apparent when I tried to revive it on Tumblr with the Thin H Line series. Although there were one or two strips that had enough social consciousness to get reblogs, for the most part, it was still something people were reluctant to follow or share.
This is not the fault of anyone but myself. I didn’t see the writing on the wall when it was there. When I met my old friend Bryan O’Malley in 2004 he brought with him a copy of Lost At Sea. We were all part of the same group way back in Toronto in 1999, and through his tremendous effort and dedication to his craft, as well as an uncanny sense of how to connect to the audience, he became a respected comic book creator whose work became a cult-classic movie. That should have been a kick in the ass, but no, I just got him to draw me another panel for Sexy Losers.
So you see, I only have myself to blame. And that’s what’s so bittersweet about this, is all the work that has added up to so little personal success. The dedication I had to the content, the personal assurance that this was not all in vain, kept me producing a comic that was providing diminshing returns.
And oh yeah, the friends I lost along the way. Bryan, up there, for example. The other OFU folk. Space Coyote. The OCAD group. The people on Keenspace. A lot of people I miss. Most of these people have work that appears in Sexy Losers, and it’s sad to see it sometimes. There were better days and good laughs.
But if you enjoyed it, that’s good. I’m only looking at this from a personal and professional perspective and what it’s done for me as creator of the strip.